For those who missed the entry last spring, I ran for a few positions on the Executive Board of the John Glenn Civic Leadership Council. This is really the only student organization I’m part of (I don’t count anything I get paid for), and I really wanted a leadership position so I could contribute even more. However, I ended up losing all the elections. This was upsetting at first, but then I was appointed by the Exec Board to plan the annual conference and to do marketing for the group, which I was more than happy with. I figured I didn’t really have the time to dedicate to the Exec Board anyway, so it was probably for the best.

When I returned to the first meeting in the fall, I found out the Vice President of Membership was stepping down from her position due to a new job and time constraints. I didn’t plan on running at first, but I said yes when Exec Board members asked if I was going to. I mean, I really did want to be on the board, but I had already accepted that I wasn’t. The resignation was pretty sudden and I didn’t really take much time to think about it.

After a nerve-racking election speech (ahh I’m terrible at public speaking), I won the position. I was thrilled. Then the former VP gave me an odd warning, basically saying good luck for the mess I was about to get myself into. I laughed…at the time.

Ok, I’m not saying I don’t love having the opportunity give back to the CLC and contribute to the decisions that make it so successful.  But I did take more on than I thought I was taking on. We not only have our weekly general meeting, but also a weekly Exec Board meeting, weekly meeting with the President (who takes on more than all of us and I have no idea how!), weekly meeting with the advisor, and biweekly service of street cleaning. Plus we are constantly planning and preparing for events. And I was already having a really tough time making my schedule work this quarter.

I just have to keep reminding myself how much I love this and the reasons I wanted to be a part of this. To me, this is something that I enjoy, a highlight of a long day in work and at classes. But right now, with grad school applications in full swing, it’s just so overwhelming. I feel like everything I do is a full time job in itself. I’m wondering when I’m going to start being able to enjoy all this, like one should in their senior year.